The other day I was casually scrolling through Instagram - something I am trying to curtail as I inevitably end up spending waaaay too much time there - when I saw a post that simply said:
"There is a movement of mothers, back into the home."
And it intrigued me.
You see, almost 2 years ago now, I felt this tugging to home. To be present at home. To create a space that not only feels safe to my family but is an encouragement to others when they visit. To use this season of motherhood in the HOME as a blessing to my family AND BEYOND.
**To be clear I am still learning what this looks like.**
I had no idea where to start but the silver lining that I see in 2020 is that it intentionally slowed us all down. I'm not negating the hard, because it was definitely a painful time, but I am thankful that there was a slowed pace for all. It definitely allowed me to rethink where I was in my motherhood and life.
I had this idea of what motherhood should be. What it was supposed to be.
*You're supposed to be busy.
*You're supposed to be tired.
. . . that's just the way it is . . . Wear your badge of honor, cling to that coffee cup and get things done.
And then the guilt - Remember, you prayed for this? You longed for this?
But I was wrong. I was dwelling on the wrong things.
Yes, there are days when you're tired - hello week 2 of quarantine - but that doesn't have to be your badge of honor. It does not need defending. Those first few years with the boys WERE exhausting, but I know a lot of that was because I was trying to do too much. In fact, I'm still finishing some things from those early years . . but my list is getting smaller.
Little by little. Day by day.
That has been my encouragement for many years now and only recently have I realized the weight of it all. When we look at the BIG PICTURE, or that BIG HAIRY THING that we want to change in our lives, it is overwhelming. *insert panic attack here* But, when you focus on doing just one small thing, taking one small step each day towards your goal or finishing that THING then little by little that BIG THING will become smaller and smaller. Will you mess up? Oh yes!! But the beautiful thing is that you will grow through it and, per chance, that BIG THING may change your life for the better.
Part II to come.
**Instagram account that started this train of thought -> @siloandsage. I Invite you to check her out.
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